HORMONES / ANXIETY: My hormones are raging. I have little to no patience and that has been giving me major mom guilt these past few weeks. We have hit a hard two year old phase with Juliette – tantrums galore, not wanting to listen, bedtime and nap strikes. It’s been especially challenging trying to manage all of this being at the end of my pregnancy. I am also starting to wonder about the last few weeks – when will I go into labor? Will Joren be home again? Will my water break on it’s own or will I need to be induced? I feel like I had such a dream situation last time and I truly hope it’s smooth sailing this time as well. I am feeling some emotions about being away from Juliette and hoping she does well seeing as she has never been away from me for more than a few hours.
MOVEMENT: Now that Dawson is literally out of room his movements have changed dramatically. He pushes out on my ribs, occasionally karate chopping them. He pushes something out on my upper right side, not sure if it’s an elbow or a foot or a hand, but he pushes it out so far it looks like I have a little mass growing out of my side! It’s wild. He is also starting to really push his head down again causing a ton of pressure.
CHARLIE HORSES: Okay, OUCH. I have had charlie horses in my calves occasionally in the past, with or without being pregnant, but I am having them everyday in my groin areas. They are SO painful they stop me in my tracks.
TOTAL WEIGHT GAIN: 24lbs. I ended up losing several pounds after incorporating my new GD diet and routine, which I am told can happen. I am back up to 139lbs now that Dawson is gaining rapidly, putting me at 24lbs gained so far.
THE BELLY: Is round and pronounced! I am definitely carrying a lot differently this pregnancy – it looks like I am smuggling a bowling ball! I do have a linea nigra line but it’s super light this time. I am experiencing a lot of Braxton Hicks contractions.
WHAT I’M WEARING: I have been living in loose clothing, my favorite maternity leggings, and/or robes! I don’t really leave the house at this point aside from appointments and I am all about comfort.
During week 30 we had lifestyle maternity photos taken by one of my dear friends, Claudia. She has taken photos for us in the past and as always I am in love with them! These are some of my favorites from the shoot. You can find her on Instagram at @ccportraitsandlifestyle.
During week 35 we had an ultrasound to check on Dawson’s weight. They approximated him at 5lbs 14oz, predicting he will be in the upper 7’s at birth. As you may know we hadn’t seen his precious face during any of our previous scans and the tech tried so hard to get some photos for us…and she did! He is buried very low and his little nose was smushed but I was over the moon to see his face and it looks like he is going to look similar to his big sister! He has chunky cheeks and hair. And he’s still a boy – I made her double check 😉 Everything else during the ultrasound looked great and we are so thankful for a healthy babe.
CURRENT FEELINGS: As I write this I am approaching 36 weeks and knowing he could possibly be here in the next 2-3 weeks just blows my mind! I am full of emotion – happiness, excitement, anxiety, wonder…you name it, I feel it!
SLEEP: It could be worse. I have a hard time getting comfortable and I turn from one side to the other like a rotisserie chicken all night long but luckily I am not experiencing insomnia.
HIGHLIGHT OF THE MONTH: Honestly, just making it one more month closer to the end because we are so excited and ready. My hospital bags are packed, the baby gear is set up, his nursery is complete. I am endlessly thankful for another healthy month for us both.
LOW OF THE MONTH: Our whole family came down with a nasty cold and it was miserable! It’s always so hard being pregnant and sick because you really can’t take or do much for relief. I am so glad that it is over and we are all back to feeling normal. We are also in the middle of a Measles outbreak in our community and it is giving me much anxiety. We decided to only have our parents visit Dawson for the first little while until this outbreak is contained. I know he has passive immunity for the first six months from breastfeeding but it still scares the bajeezus out of me to possibly expose him to something, especially Measles. Also, due to this outbreak Juliette is unable to visit in the hospital due to their policies. I appreciate the facility taking caution but it is still a bummer that she won’t be able to meet him until we are home.
OBSESSING OVER: Finally seeing Dawson’s face on the ultrasound! I keep staring at his photos. I cannot wait to see him in person even more now.
MISS ANYTHING?: Being able to move comfortably, but I think I have been saying that the past two months now? It only gets worse because I am only continuing to grow!
FOOD CRAVINGS + AVERSIONS: I am definitely missing chocolate and sweets. It’s been a hard adjustment going from indulging in my sweet tooth for the majority of my pregnancy, to then being diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes and not being able to have any. No aversions but I am pretty tired of chicken and eggs. I have been eating a whole heck of a lot of protein lately.
LOOKING FORWARD TO: Meeting Dawson. I just want to have him here with me safe, happy and healthy.